Admissions
During my senior year at Santa Monica High School I was the
epitome of cluelessness. That
fall, most of my friends were filling out college applications. I was barely
eking through Algebra Two, falling only second to last with a handsome football
player named D’John. When
Homecoming week was over and all the celebrations had run their course I
figured that I ought to apply somewhere.
“It’s too late” my best friend, Kim told me. "You missed the deadline".
I was part of a She Pack of girls that was enthusiastic,
well known and motivated. Our pack walked a line between wildness and
adoration; engaged enough to pacify the adults at the school, we got away with
things like dressing up as babies on Halloween and putting vodka and orange
juice in the bottles. We created
the Mickey Mouse Club which we claimed promoted school spirit. On Fridays, we wore mouse ears and
Disney themed clothing. We never
discussed trivial matters like our future. But most of the Mickey Mouse Club had gone through the
college application process. Many
of them also had older siblings or parents who had herded them through. Kim, being the straight a, honors,
first chair orchestra, cheerleading self-proclaimed over achieving Asian that
she was, had been accepted to UCLA.
She would live at home just like her four older brothers had done and
make the drive in to Westwood from Malibu. Maria, the feisty Chilean had been
accepted to USC as a potential dental student, if not hygienist. Molly, whose mother was Nancy
Reagan’s personal secretary, had remained in California her last two years of
high school, while her mom lived near the White House. She would be headed to Georgetown in
September. And Jen had been
accepted to Humboldt State following in the footsteps of her brother, a
Forestry Major.
And then there was me.
At one time, after taking the one and only science class of my life, Human Physiology, I thought it would be fun to be a nurse. Looking back, it makes sense because I was obsessed with a soap opera called General Hospital. Nurses walked around, flirting with handsome doctors and solving the personal problems of patients, didn’t they? That sounded like a job perfectly suited for me. During College Day in the gym I had picked up a brochure from San Francisco State that listed the requirements of a nursing degree. I looked it over with my Dad and Judi and saw that I had a snowball’s chance in hell of becoming a nurse. Too much math and science required.
At one time, after taking the one and only science class of my life, Human Physiology, I thought it would be fun to be a nurse. Looking back, it makes sense because I was obsessed with a soap opera called General Hospital. Nurses walked around, flirting with handsome doctors and solving the personal problems of patients, didn’t they? That sounded like a job perfectly suited for me. During College Day in the gym I had picked up a brochure from San Francisco State that listed the requirements of a nursing degree. I looked it over with my Dad and Judi and saw that I had a snowball’s chance in hell of becoming a nurse. Too much math and science required.
Because my dad worked, on average 12 hours a day and traveled
2/3’s of every month he had next to zero interaction with anyone at Samohi, as
our high school was affectionately called. I forged my own Sick Notes because he told
me,
“They’ll recognize your signature better than mine”
To be fair, my dad had been to the High School once. This was when I was in a Shakespeare
play called Much Ado About Nothing.
Opening night, in the dressing room where I was made up as “the Fair
Hero”, the stage manager came rushing in, moments before curtain to exclaim,
“There’s a guy out there with a decanter and he’s passing
drinks to his friends! There’s no
alcohol allowed on school premises!”
Naturally, I knew this was my grandfather Woody, who was
simply passing gin and tonics to Nana, Dad and Judi. How else were they to endure 3 hours of High School
Shakespeare?
I didn’t know what I wanted to "be" after high school so I
blocked the whole college application problem out of my mind
And that’s when I started clubbing.
Ok, there is no such verb as clubbing. In proper English it means becoming a
participant of the nightclub scene.
It was early 1980’s and disco was dead. Although I still remained faithful to my beloved poet, Jim
Morrison, I now listened to KROQ – the rock of the 80’s. I loved The Clash, The Specials, The
English Beat, Adam and the Ants, and Bow Wow Wow. I adored Duran Duran whose hit song “Girls on Film” the Mickey
Mouse club had lovingly renamed, “Girls on Shrooms”. I also loved hardcore punk too and blasted Agent
Orange and the Dead Kennedys. Driving
up and down Wilshire Boulevard, blowing clove cigarette smoke out of the window
of my Toyota Tercel, I sang along to the lyrics of anger and rebellion, dodging
traffic. Punk Rock helped channel
the frustrations I had about life.
Powerlessness, hopelessness and the sadness of my unrealized dreams;
dreams that I was too asleep to know that I even had.
By the Spring of Senior year I had shaved the side of my
head and began wearing bondage pants and black leather boots to school.
“You look like a cancer patient”, dad told me.
I would stay out late dancing in Hollywood clubs. At 3:00 am I’d be eating Oki Dogs on
Fairfax Avenue with friends, in denial about the current day’s tests or
quizzes. I went to see live bands and watching the Tubes perform was a regular scenario.
One night, driving down the 405 I almost flipped my car with the entire Mickey
Mouse club inside. Oops.
I was a not-so-adorable train wreck.
Graduation was exciting but when High school was finally finished
I was too obsessed with Martin, a drummer in the Mod band I followed to even
care about college. That summer
was great. After the shows we’d
stay up watching Quadrophenia and getting drunk. I lived in the moment and it was all a blast.
At some point, I had been cajoled over to Santa Monica City
College to pick up an application.
But, it remained blank, unfilled, and buried in the shit pile that was
my bedroom.
Mid summer, after a long day of combing through record
stores and thrift shops on Melrose Avenue I came home and found my dad on the
phone with his nemesis: my mother.
“I don’t know.
Dru, how do you get copies of high school transcript?” he queried.
“Hmmm…go down to Samohi, I guess”
“Well go now because your mother is filling out a college
application for you. You’re going
to Humboldt”.
What? I knew I
didn’t have the grades to get into any school. At least that’s what I thought,
what my friends had implied. But
my mother had been on the phone with the admission’s office at HSU. (Had she begged, or tried to sell her
soul?) It turned out that they
would consider a late application, and a person with a poxy 2.87 G.P.A. like
me.
When the formal letter of acceptance arrived in late July I
was secretly thrilled. I didn’t
know anything about Humboldt, where was it again? Somewhere. Oh,
a forest. I knew my friend Jen
would be going there so I called her. When I told her I was going too she said,
“Great. You can
drive us”.
After much herding and prodding from Dad and Judi, I started
to pack: miniskirts, vintage go-go boots, my 1960’s mod jewelry, and my black
and white suede heels. Jen came
over and watching me hurl things into a large cardboard box remarked,
"Not sure you are gonna need any of that. You’d better get
some ducks”.
“Ducks? You
mean those ugly waterproof boots?
No way. I will never wear those. They are fashion suicide: hideous, preppy and gross”. I lamented
“It rains a lot there.
You’re gonna want them”.
“No way! Never!”
I said, tossing a vintage leather
jacket into the pile.
End of Part I.
End of Part I.